Love in life

For a long time now I have been searching for many things, one of which is love and romance. I’m 21 and honestly have never had a boyfriend before and sometimes I feel quite ashamed and embarrassed at the fact that I have never been in any sort of relationship. I’m at a point in my life now where most people I know my age have been in long term relationships, have babies or are even getting married and there’s me not even had a boyfriend yet. Sometimes it can be awkward and people are a bit taken back at people who have never had a boyfriend before at my age which then makes you feel pressured to try and find someone. 

Which then leads me to the feeling of being pressured. Sometimes people do things because other people are doing them and they don’t want to be the only person that’s not doing the same thing. Especially When your a teenager there’s a lot of pressure to be in a relationship, people will be in one even if they don’t want to be in one just to they ‘fit’ in. I honestly think that if it wasn’t for the ‘pressure’ to find someone I wouldn’t have been so determined to try and find a boyfriend. People are ready to make that commitment at different times, not everyone is the same. 

I’ve never been the one to just go for anybody so I can say that I have a boyfriend I personally don’t want to jump from one to another. If it means I have to wait a little longer than most people then I’ll have to wait I know the right guy will come along when the time is right. Right now I’m not giving up on trying to FIND LOVE but I’m just not going to go searching or I’m not going to wish every day that I had one and I’m not going to be in one just because everybody else is. I need time for myself, I need to focus on me, I like my own company as well as other people’s company. I need to start trusting people more and letting people in, I need to let other people in my ‘bubble’. 

If your in the same situation as me, try and not feel so pressured into being in a relationship. If your fine being on your own focus on yourself, your career, your friends and family. Someone will come along. I’m not saying just stop looking all together but make sure you focus on other things too. 

xxx

Oreo Cupcakes!

I did some baking today! As an Oreo lover I've seen some oreo cupcake recipes floating around which has made me want to bake some myself. If your an oreo lover too, here's the recipe of which I used to make these delicious treats!

Ingredients

• Oreo biscuits (3 packets)
• 115g Unsulted butter
• 115g caster sugar
• half a teaspoon of vanilla extract 
• 100g self rasin flour
• 20g cocoa powder
• 2 large eggs
• 1 tsp milk 

1. Take one oreo packet and place an oreo in the case
2. pre heat your oven to 180/160C fan/gas 4 
3. Put your butter into the bowl and then add in your sugar and vanilla extract mix together until it's pale and fluffy
4. Sift in the flour and the cocoa powder 
5. Crack your two eggs into the bowl and add the milk and mix them together once that's all done it should look something like this picture below

Then divide your mixture as equal as you can into each case 

Then you need to pop your cakes in for 22-25 mins.

Butter Icing

For the butter Icing I've just used the recipe which I normally use. Then to add the oreo touch to it get yourself a bag which you can then put a packet of oreo's in make sure you tie it up as you'll be bashing it about a bit! You then just want to take the bag and bash it about on something hard to crush the oreo's into small pieces/crumbs which is pretty fun to do! :)

Once the oreo's are all crushed add it to your mixture and then stir until it's blended in as much as possible. 

When that is all done It's then time to be fun and creative with the way you decorate them! I split the cookies in half which has created sort of a butterfly cake effect but of course you can do it anyway you like! 

And there you have it, some delicious, tasty Oreo cupcakes.

xxx

A Catch up.

It's been something of a week, my job seems to be taking over my life right now long shifts and early shifts have just left me feeling really tired. It's the early shifts that sort of kill me, 6am starts up at 5am and the shifts lasts for 8 hours on my feet all day. I mean the job itself is I don't know really I mean It could be better but it also could be a lot worse. It's definitely making me more of a people person, I'm a shy person so sometimes I'm quite awkward at socialising but this is helping me with my confidence and things like that. I don't know how long I'm going to stay there I don't really plan on staying long? Although I've had quite a few jobs and that doesn't always look good on a CV. Although I love cakes and anything to do with baking this job isn't what I thought it would be. I want to try and make my way to become a Photographer or have a career in music, both of which are my main two loves in life.
    This week also brought me some unexpected news, my mum has been diagnosed with Parkinsons disease which I honestly didn't know what that was until she explained it to me and my family. I'm a big worrier so I think I'm going to be spending most of my time worrying about her now. She's fine at the moment, but I'm more worried about what happens further down the track It's a thing which gets worse, not better. But we've just got to support her and all be there as a family with her.
   Today was not the greatest of days. Work wasn't great, and it's just been one of those days. But I'm so exhausted right now having been up for 15 hours I think I'm in need of some beauty sleep. My mind is else where, and I'm probably be going to lay in bed for hours just over thinking and panicking about things which is what I tend to do most of the time. Even though my week wasn't so great I hope you've had a good week! Have you been up to much? Oh I have also been OBSESSED with Out Of The Woods by Taylor Swift which literally has been on repeat, it's definitely my jam right now and I just really cannot wait till 1989! :0
xxx

A little lush haul!

I also recently went to Lush, although I don't shop there ALL the time I absolutely love it! I normally shop there online and having recently watched some lush haul video's It made me have the urge to purchase a few things myself.

I actually really liked all the products I got. Although I have to say my favourite was definitely the Christmas Bath melt and the foott cream! Having a job where I'm on my feet for over 8 hours straight can be really tiring not just for myself but for my feet too. I had never really thought of having foot cream before but this for some reason caught my eye and I wanted to try it out. The cream itself is a beautiful pink colour and smells great! Generally it just left my feet feeling incredibly smooth and relaxed. They say it's best at use just before you go to bed! But you can really use it whenever. 

Onto the Christmas Bath Bomb. I actually thought this was a bath bomb at first but realised it wasn't when I put it into the water haha. So I was expecting a lot of glitter or sparkly bits in the bath. But even though It wasn't what I expected it turned out being one of my favourite products that I've ever used from Lush! Firstly it smells AMAZING y'know like the smell of Christmas SO GOOD. It also turns your bath into one of the most beautiful shades of green which I loved! I noticed it left my skin feeling incredibly smooth!

I also loved the other two products which were 'Northern lights' and *forgets the name of the bath bomb. Sorry yeah I forgot the name haha, but It'll still be down on the website if your interested. Both very colourful :)

So that's it, I'm very much of a bath person so I always love trying different bath products and things from lush and just in general. 

I went shopping!

Hey all!
It's been SO long since I last posted, quite a lot has been going on. I've started a new job which has taken up most of my time so I don't get as much free time any more. I've been meaning to write a post for a while now but just haven't got round to doing it. I went shopping today, I didn't go on a huge shopping spree but just thought I would show you what I had purchased because I absolutely love the things I got.

I first went into H&M which with any shopping trip is normally the first shop I go into because sometimes I can spend a LONG time in there. Although I have to say with this trip it was a bit of a let down I was in and out within 15 mins but I did purchase a couple of things.

I should point out that I can't actually remember the prices of these items but I do know that each Item separately was less that £20! 

 

I noticed these really pretty bangles and I just really adore the colours and patterns on each one. I thought the colours and the style would be perfect for this autumn season. Although I do have small wrists so they might not fit me perfectly but I'll still be wearing them!

Please excuse the out of focusness of some of these pictures my camera isn't being itself lately so I'll have to make do with photo's that are a bit out of focus for now. Anyway, I then spotted these necklaces which I LOVE. The bow I thought was extremely cute! The big circle necklace I thought would go nicely with an outfit that you'd like to smarten up for maybe an interview, a date, or just anywhere that's got a bit of a smarter dress code. I also really love the "cone" shape necklace, I'm much more of a gold person than a silver for when it comes to jewellery.

I really liked the look of this Iphone case, the colours just remind me of autumn. The one I had before was bright blue with pretty flowers on which was very summery! But I liked the fact that this reminded me of autumn. 

Which then brings me to this half outfit I put together with all my recent purchases. I found this simple grey top from New Look which has a gold zip on the back. I thought these necklaces would go really nicely with this top. And then the bracelet which I got from John Lewis. 

I then Instantly fell in love with these socks. One of my favourite things about the cold weather is wrapping up warm in cosy and comfy clothing. Wolly/wintery socks are my favourite! The two hearts on the side of each sock are super cute, and I just love the patterns and the colours over all! 

Hope you've had a nice weekend, I'm back off to work tomorrow unfortunately but gotta earn some money so guess it's gotta happen! xxx